DOWNING N DROWNING

I LOVE ALL THE RIGHT, IN YOUR WRONG,

BECAUSE THE RIGHT IS THIS AIN’T WHERE I BELONG,

I FALL DEEP FOR YOUR TYPE, BECAUSE THEY DON’T

TREAT ME RIGHT, THE CHEATER WHO LIKES

TO ALSO ABUSE, THE VERBALLY ABUSIVE KIND WITH A SHORT FUSE,

MAKES ME FALL FASTER WITH EVERY BRUISE, FOR EVERY

FOUL ACTION, I MAKE AN EXCUSE. MY FRIENDS

REMIND ME OF WHAT I’M WORTHWHILE, I SIT AND QUESTION MY OWN BIRTH. I NEVER

SMILE BECAUSE I’M HAPPY, IT’S A FRONT SO EVERYONE WON’T KNOW I’M TRULY CRAPPY. I ALLOW MYSELF TO BE TREATED LESS, TO KEEP UP

THE OUTSIDE IMAGE OF IMPRESS, I CHOOSE THE ONE WHO CHEATS,

SO I WILL NEVER HAVE THE TASK TO COMPETE, I FORCE EVERY KNOWN LIE

IN MY HEAD TRUE, SO THAT I’M PREPARED WITHOUT CONFUSE, I RATHER BE CALLED A BITCH TO MY FACE, THEN TO BE CALLED PRETTY AND UNEXPECTEDLY REPLACED, I SEEK ALL THAT THE AVERAGE WOMAN FEARS, SO THAT I CAN AVOID EXPECTATIONS UNMET WITH TEARS, I CAN’T MISS WHAT I NEVER HEAR, I CAN’T BE AFRAID OF ALL THE THINGS I KEEP NEAR, I’M NOT HAPPY BUT I DON’T RESENT, SINCE I LIVE LIFE IN A WORLD OF CONTENT, OF COURSE I WONDER ABOUT THE OTHER SIDE, THE GENUINE SMILES, GIFTS AND THE FEELING OF ALIVE, THEN I GET NERVOUS AND IMMEDIATELY WANT TO HIDE, BECAUSE REJECTION IS A ROLLER COASTER I NEVER WISH TO RIDE. THEY SAY NOT TO FIX WHAT AIN’T BROKEN, WHAT ABOUT THE SELF ESTEEM THAT’S NEVER BEEN OPEN? OWNING A LADDER THAT YOUR AFRAID TO CLIMB, NOT WANTING TO SEE ALL THAT YOU MAY FIND, FOREVER A FUTURE OUT OF SIGHT AND MIND